Breath of Intent...

This is one of my most FAVORITE prints...."Breath of Intent" by Ashama! It reminds me of creating....creating the world in which we choose to live. I just sit and take it in! One day in the near future, I will have this on my wall and it will be a conversational piece. You don't know the power you have! Peace & love friends!

I'm Alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay...I'm alive and well and in a place in my life where things are starting to settle. I got this picture from Justine and both Sam & Daly are looking VERY sad and missing "Auntie" T!!

My job at Landmark Education is going really great. I work INSANE hours and I am in love with what I do. I have to say that it makes for a busy week and time passes and I'm shocked when I realize the end of the week has come!

I reallllllllyyyyyyy miss all my family and friends. I'm still working out the details of being in communication with all the demand of my job. Know that I love and miss all of you. :-(

I called Club-E today and found out that the girl that was hired to replace me is going back to her old job. I was SHOCKED! I haven't been in touch w/ Mikki to find out what the heck is going on but I will. For a brief moment, I had the thought that perhaps it was a "sign" that I should pack up and move back. What it would be like to work 4 days a week! I did dapple with it and then again, I am so psyched about my current job. It's such a catch 22.

Anyway, I'm just babbling. I haven't updated this blog in a long time and I was hesitant to do so without so fully packed "story" of my life of the last 5 months.

So, this is my first foot back into journaling on line. I miss and love all of you! I'm off to bed! It's late!

Award Winning Acknowledgment!

Hey there lady,

I SO SO SO hope you had a nice time while you were away. You deserve it. I just spent the last 20 mins catching up on your posts.... NICE WORK. Here is what I have concluded.... You don't get enough acknowledgement for how fantastic you are. And when you get it... you don't hear it ALL. SO, let me take the time and BE THAT person who reminds you.... Sister, you are F'ING FANTASTIC. You are super intelligent, honest, outgoing, beautiful, sassy, dingy, HOT, full of integrity, committed, generous, and as much as I could go on... I want you to get the picture... You are the shit.... and thank you for being part of my life. And for those who haven't told you yet..... thank you for being part of their life too... you DO make a difference, you DO create amazing possibilities, you DO have an amazing world around you ... and YOU ALWAYS HAVE. I just want to thank you for finally acknowledging how wonderful your world is and how important you are to this life. I know you are important to my life and I know that when I don't hear from you for a period of time... things start to feel a little EMPTY... I am fairly confident that with you I laugh the most and I really appreciate that you allow me to be ME... including all of my "ass kicking" flaws. Personally, that is what real camaraderie is all about. I love you girl... Melissa

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I've been wanting to post this for some time now. I've noticed that more than a month has gone by without a post. I have been really CRAZY busy. There's a lot going on in my life right now and as the Universe would have it, I came across this email and from it, it reminded me of the possibility I've created out of my Introduction Leadership Program! I'm grounded in being a woman with no boundaries..."Ashama"!!! A woman who is not stopped in the face of LIFE! :-) I'm so excited about creating that and living into to it. That possibility has given me great strength to really honor my own happiness. To not get stopped by my feelings around "what other people think". To not get stopped by my own fears of not being good enough, smart enough or lovable. From that one possibility, I have taken steps to live into the future of a Lanmark Forum leader! I'm SCARED and EXCITED all at once. It will be a couple of years living into that vision but I have been putting that off for almost four years. I've been putting off a lot of things. So, that being said, living inside of that future is going to take me being a woman with no boundaries.

To my friends and family who have not seen much of me....I have been INSANELY busy. I've been to Boston, NY, back to Boston SEVERAL TIMES...back to NY, I've been involved in hosting introductions to the Landmark Forum! AND BY THE WAY.....nearly FOUR YEARS LATER, Gerry is going to Boston next week to complete the Landmark Forum! I'm VERY excited for him! I can't even believe it! My mother, my friend Laurie and now Gerry! AMAZING!!!

No matter what, know that I love you and miss you--even when I am not present to be with you!

Happy Easter!

Everyone that knows me KNOWS I twist my hair...I have since my hair was long enough to twist. Well, now my niece asks me if I would like to twist her hair! I'm caught on film on Eastery Sunday, twisting her hair. Ha, ha, ha! She thinks it's funny and I just think it's FUN! I have no idea where the fetish started. I just know it's part of who I am. :-)

If you notice in the picture, the polka-dot boots....I found them on sale at Old Navy and HAD to get them. I decided Gabby needed to take a photo shoot sporting them with her polka dot Easter dress. She was also spoiled with her Easter "basket" from me....lot's of scooby snacks and other miscellaneous Easter "junk". :-) She loved it all AND she is SOOOOO easy to spoil!

Our Easter started at Church. I was greeted with hugs from Miss Hannah and Miss Kayla to thank me for their Easter baskets. Then, off to see my family!! Now, let me just set the stage here....I'm use to a spread on Easter. It's kind of like Thanksgiving. This year, my parents decided to put STEAKS on the grill!!!!!!!! I DID give my mother a lot of "bull" for steering away from traditions of the past. :-) Of course, now that my mother has done the Landmark Forum, she's all about, "Who says it has to be Ham"??? She's right and I still don't like to give up my traditions! :-) It was nice visiting and spending time with little Miss Gabrielle! She's growing up so fast!

Well, I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter! Peace & love to you all!

Inspirational Lyrics!

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky

Confusing stars for satellites

I never dreamed that you'd be mine

But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies

Our only light in paradise

We'll show the world they were wrong

And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are

If they could love like you and me

Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died

When nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day
when nobody died

If Everyone Cared ~ Nickelback

New York, New York....

This is a picture of the view I had when I was in NY last weekend. A bunch of us from Maine left Friday for Boston where we connected with other "Bostonians" for a bus ride to New York! For the next 6 1/2 months of my life I am in training with Landmark Education to complete the Spring Introduction Leadership Program!!!! YEAH!

For 3 1/2 years, I have been "hiding out", always being a "NO"! for participating in this program! All I can say is that the stars and the moons aligned and it finally became clear to me that this is the future I am living into. I applied for the program and got accepted this past fall. So, for FIVE months, I've been living a life like that of a Senior in Highschool.....knowing full well that when March 17th arrived, that my life was going to radically alter (like it does when you go off to college). Believe me, I have been kicking a screaming the entire way..."I don't want to....blah, blah, blah". Ha, ha, ha!

Getting back to New York....what an outrageous time! I got to be with almost 400 people from all over the world....Australia, Germany, Russia, Jamaica, Montreal, Poland. All of these people up to BIG things in life. It was the most AMAZING weekend! In that classroom, I felt like NOTHING in life could stop me. The energy was profound. We spent an entire day introducing ourselves which to me, created "community". LOVED IT! That weekend, I created a "game"....creating LOVE and APPRECIATION to be PRESENT for ALL CHILDREN; the TRANSFORMATION of parents and their relationship to their children; the POSSIBILITY of continuously making a difference in the lives of children. Not even being a parent myself, can you get my unconditional love for all children? :-)

So everyone! WATCH OUT...T-mad is out to causing BIG things in the lives of children and empowering others to transform their relationships to children! :-)

Peace & love!

The Angel that touched my life...

Miss Jossilyn mailed us this card after our office made a donation to the family. I have never met this child and only know her through Miss Kelly (hygienist that I work with). I was so touched and moved by her positive energy in the face of her cancer. Only 9 years old and this child was BIGGER than I have known any child to be at that age. Reading her Journal was so inspiring. Never being stopped by the fact that she was fighting Leukemia. Every day was a gift to her. Every moment was lived by her. She had what I have been training for 3 1/2 years to achieve....living in the moment. We don't know that we have ten years from now, we only have NOW, this MINUTE to live a life of choice.

Miss Jossilyn passed away on March 21, 2007 after a long battle with Leukemia. I had the honor and privilege to say goodbye to an angel that touched my life.